Here I Am

I don’t like pleading,
But here I am
Pleading you to stay

I don’t like wishing,
But here I am
Wishing you won’t leave Continue reading “Here I Am”

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1 a.m thoughts (2.0)

​Its 12:56 a.m. and all I can think about is you. Your voice, your words, your hands, you. Let me sleep, God dammit.

When did I become this obsessed with you, huh? 

The excitement I get when I see your text notification is nothing compared to the disappointment I feel when the text says – “can’t talk right now, sorry.”

When did the dread of you inevitably leaving begin to outweigh the joy of you unexpectedly being here?  Continue reading “1 a.m thoughts (2.0)”

A future break up

Dear future ex
I’ll be honest, despite continuously talking about our then-future-breakup, I was never actually prepared for the wave of pain that would come along with actually breaking up. I think the reason it hurts so much is because even though I went on and on about eventually breaking up, I didn’t, for a second, completely believe it myself. I didn’t want to believe it myself. Continue reading “A future break up”