NOISE

Cranking up the volume on my headphones to drown the noise of my own thoughts My eardrums might burst, but I think that’s better than my heart bursting

TRANSIENT

I want to be wine That gets better with age But we’re Odomos, Come with an expiry date

the wound never really closes 

11.01.2018 Dear Happy,  It’s been two years.  Two years since you left this world to hopefully reach something bigger and better. Two years since you left all of us to rot here, alone and without the positivity that you always emitted.  Two years, and the wound of your loss still feels open. Two years, and…

REMINDER

And if today, All you did was hold yourself together, I’m proud of you

SPACE

I need space Space for my head To think again Space for my hands To work again Space for me To be me again I’m suffocating Choking, stuffed Once a girl of Her own free will Now suddenly governed By a million others I can’t breathe Amidst all these people Who keep talking Expecting me…

1 a.m thoughts (2.0)

​Its 12:56 a.m. and all I can think about is you. Your voice, your words, your hands, you. Let me sleep, God dammit.  When did I become this obsessed with you, huh?  The excitement I get when I see your text notification is nothing compared to the disappointment I feel when the text says –…

STORMS

“Do not fall in love with people like me. I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when…

THE BEACH

I’ve always, always been drawn to beaches I wonder where this affinity comes from Is it just because of the ocean And the sand tickling my feet? Or maybe it is something deeper, Kindred to memories almost lost

PAIN

More than anything in the world she wanted to be able to feel something. She wanted to be able to sweat when it was hot and shiver when it was cold. She wanted to feel pain like all other people did. But she couldn’t. Her body could not perceive pain, and it seemed like more…

SANCTUARY

She was so, so tired. Absolutely exhausted from living. Her brain hurt, her limbs ached and her heart throbbed. Every step of every day felt like climbing out of a pothole. Every gesture felt like lifting a mountain. Living  was taking everything out of her. But she loved it. And that’s what came between him and her. 

Big Girls Cry

I’m three years old Going to school for the first time My mom looks at me And says firmly, “Big girls don’t cry”

cry, baby, cry

Cry, baby, cry Cry if you’re upset Cry if you miss someone Cry because you feel Cry, baby, cry Cry because you’re happy Cry because you’re touched Cry, you have the right to