Beautiful Trauma

(Hoping to God that you don’t read my blog) I know that none of this is your fault and I know I cannot blame you for all the shit that has happened, the shit that is happening and I’m not blaming you.   Advertisements

1 a.m thoughts (2.0)

​Its 12:56 a.m. and all I can think about is you. Your voice, your words, your hands, you. Let me sleep, God dammit.  When did I become this obsessed with you, huh?  The excitement I get when I see your text notification is nothing compared to the disappointment I feel when the text says –…

STORMS

“Do not fall in love with people like me. I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when…

HI, IT’S ME, EBE! 

Hey!!! I’m Ebe, Rev’s best friend. It’s nice to meet you! I’d like to say that this collab had been in the works for like ages. And now it’s finally happening and I couldn’t be more excited!! I like to think I know Rev pretty well, what with her whole table phase and Maroon 5….

HEARTBREAK

“We need to talk” “I know” Breaking; A single crack

100 QUESTIONS

I am out of ideas and this seems fun so, why not?

A future break up

Dear future ex I’ll be honest, despite continuously talking about our then-future-breakup, I was never actually prepared for the wave of pain that would come along with actually breaking up. I think the reason it hurts so much is because even though I went on and on about eventually breaking up, I didn’t, for a second, completely…

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Here’s the universal truth: Enough is never enough

THE BEACH

I’ve always, always been drawn to beaches I wonder where this affinity comes from Is it just because of the ocean And the sand tickling my feet? Or maybe it is something deeper, Kindred to memories almost lost

PAIN

More than anything in the world she wanted to be able to feel something. She wanted to be able to sweat when it was hot and shiver when it was cold. She wanted to feel pain like all other people did. But she couldn’t. Her body could not perceive pain, and it seemed like more…

SANCTUARY

She was so, so tired. Absolutely exhausted from living. Her brain hurt, her limbs ached and her heart throbbed. Every step of every day felt like climbing out of a pothole. Every gesture felt like lifting a mountain. Living  was taking everything out of her. But she loved it. And that’s what came between him and her. 

Big Girls Cry

I’m three years old Going to school for the first time My mom looks at me And says firmly, “Big girls don’t cry”